Canvas Of Life

I wake up in the morning and getting some road to the brigde. saw the sunrise is one of my favorite things to do.. but one thing yg that's not change for this couple of day is my emptiness in the morning. my fear is back. and i have this huge emptiness and aching in my chest. so painfull. can you give me...

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Currenty listening "Liability by Lorde" i just love the song and been repeating all day. Remind me of my self-love and self-worth.. "Liability" sums up all of the fears about dating that most of me have occasionally had. It's not going to be rainbows and sunshine all of the time. And working hard to keep the love affair alive doesn't always guarantee that...

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It's feels like staying up all night waiting for something and realizing that nothing was going to happen and then going through my day without having gotten any sleep.. and then when i can sleep, i think i'm getting better, i really do. but then sometimes i wake up and everything is back. and i have this huge emptiness, aching hole in my...

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I’m single and not having relationship with a man or getting engaged or planning a wedding or having to share the covers with a man at night.. Meanwhile everygirls in my ages is having husband and kids right know.. Sometimes i’m sick my family like force me to get married soon and the other side sometimes i feel like sick and tired of...

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I dreamt about my Father and so I woke up with tears in my eyes. when i am alone in the middle of the night crying, remember the pain i through, remember when i almost lost my breath because of the tears i shed over him. I awake each morning to start a new day, but the pain of losing my Father never...

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look at her. say her name. she is pretty or beautiful. i know what she’s like to wearing. how skinny she is. How curvy she is. I notice the color of her eyes. I notice the color and the type of her hair. I searching her on Facebook, twitter and instagram. I notice how confident she's like take a selfie with duck face...

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"But do you want to end up alone forever?" "Maybe you need to stop being so picky" "You shouldn't give up so easily!" Hmmmm... I do try to act like I don’t care, because if I showed how much it really bothered me it kills me inside being single, it really does. For the most part, I try to act like I don’t...

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 Aku rindu disaat dengan sengaja bangun pagi hanya untuk melihat sinar mentari pagi yang terbit dan memandang perubahan warna langit merah jingga abu-abu biru gelap seiring hari yang bergulir dengan cepat menjadi pagi siang dan kembali malam.. Aku rindu memperhatikan bunga bermekaran berwarna warni, beraroma aneh yang semakin lama kian kehilangan kelopaknya satu persatu dan mengering seiring perubahan metamorfosa kehidupan yang akan terus...

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Saya merasa saya sudah terlalu lama berada disini dan merasa seperti terjebak. Berada disuatu tempat yang membuat saya tidak bisa berkembang secara psikologis dan emosional. Teringat dua minggu yang lalu, saya menemui seorang teman lama yang membuat saya merasa nyaman bisa berbicara bebas tentang apa saja yang saya pikirkan, apa yang sara rasakan. Yang tidak bisa saya keluarkan dengan mudahnya dengan semua orang.....

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