It's feels like staying up all night waiting for something and realizing that nothing was going to happen and then going through my day without having gotten any sleep..

and then when i can sleep, i think i'm getting better, i really do. but then sometimes i wake up and everything is back. and i have this huge emptiness, aching hole in my heart and i can never fill the void in me. no matter what i do, it just seems to get bad again..

then i realize i'm still alone..